
While a number of those people
who are single treat Feb 14 as synonymous to judgment day or doomsday, I myself
seem to be unfazed by it. You can never catch me lamenting over the ‘misfortune’
of having a zero love life, specifically during this time of the year. I never felt so sorry for myself, nor did I ever cast envious glances at lovers
whom I occasionally see caressing each other in a corner, and as if mentally
telling them the phrases ‘don’t patronize me! I’m happy being single’. Matters
like these were often cold-shouldered by me.
Over the years, I have
experienced the perks of being single. I’ve gotten the chance to focus more on
myself and appreciate my freedom to simply do what I wish. I have exercised the
sheer authority to put every aspect of my life in their proper perspectives.
Spending my time in solitude actually allowed me to accept, appreciate and love
myself more. I may sound like a self-absorbed individual, but I can’t deny the sublime
wonders it has brought into my life.
In a sense, I have bought my
autonomy with a good amount of loneliness. And there, I think, is where the
paradox lies.

It all boils down to a single
question- when will I ever let myself love and be loved again? I certainly
cannot answer it right know. The tragic memories of the past were as lucid as the
smell of my coffee sitting idly here on my table.
As I think about it, a stifling
panic strikes me with a realization of my greatest fear – that is if I could
ever take the pain of having my heart broken for the same damn reason.
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